Does it make sense?

I think I'm still in love with this girl....

Well its been a really hectic week for me. Started off last Monday with my Year 12 formal which was friggen awesome. Then we had an after party which went on till 6 in the morning. I got really smashed and crashed by 4am. All I remember last from the party was I threw a bottle of bourbon out the window. which apparently by that time I was off my head. Tuesday I was still feeling the party late in the afternoon. Tuesday night I headed off to be on air (radio) with Ivars and Abel and another mate of Ivars. Wednesday I slept all day and then headed of to soccer. My team is a bunch of 17-18yr olds and we are playing in a division full of premier league and state rep players. Wednesday night we did something unbelievable and beat one of the premier league teams 6-4. We were 3-0 down at half time.  That was a hectic night. Thursday night was the same but i was refereeing and we ended up having a freaky ass storm kill the night off. Friday I headed off the school to sign out and then I was off to my mates to MW2 till scouts at night. Saturday I had a really long day standing in the sun playing cricket till 6pm. Then I headed off to Andrew's 18th and man did I have a good time. I got really smashed and I was drinking till 7 in the morning. I ended up sleeping at 730am. Sunday morning I was spose to be at Birrong pools teaching kids about water safety and how to swim. I rocked up about an hour late and still feeling the party in my head. I don't know how none of the kids didn't drown while I was off my head. Sunday afternoon I was repairing the trailers at the scout hall with Bazza.

So there was pretty much my week of hekticness and man it was a week. Probably gonna have more parties to get hammered on soon. :)

Hurts Too Much

Hurts Too Much

"StarSailor"

We all get burned sometimes

lately i've had mine

Starts off in your mind

Runs right down your spine

We all get hurt by love

When you've had enough

Cracks all start to show

Sooner than you know

And it hurts too much

I'm letting you go

I'll walk these wet streets

Somewhere alone

We all get taken in

By dreams we'll never be in

Problems that we face

Soon will be replaced

And it hurts too much

I'm letting you go

I'll walk these wet streets 

Somewhere alone

And it hurts too much

I'm lettin you go

I'll walk these wet streets 

Somewhere alone

You looking for something

You already know

I'm down upon my knees

I see you're ready to fall

I'm down upon my knees

I see you're ready to fall

Fine....

Today was just absolutely fucking shit. Morning get up at 6.... FUCKING 6 to help my uncle out... then was spose to be heading to Villawood for 1030... I'm just about to get there and then change of plans... We were then gonna meet up at 12.... When we finally all met up... We discovered that the camp we organize has to be cancelled because of fucking lame transport issues.... So now the camp that I was planning on having is now canned because of some pathetic stupid reason of transport... Problem was we left organizing to late... After this I was going to a friends party... We talked on the phone before and I said as a joke because she invited someone that sometimes I don't get along with, To stick the party up her bum... she took it seriously... and decided to fuck me off.... HOW FUCKING STUPID.... She knows me so well she knows I joke a lot and she takes this seriously... and even after that she couldn't even have the guts to tell me not to come up.. instead let me turn up and get her friend  to tell me leave...She knows she can tell me not to come, its not like I'm gonna full rage and shit at her, I've got to much respect for her....I seriously have no fucking idea what the fuck was running through her head at the time. Honestly if she seriously took that much offense to what I said I was willing to apologize to her face and then leave.. but no she didn't even want to do that.. No matter what tho even through all this anger I still see her as a great friend... and Am willing to make it up to her.

After all this crap I ended up heading home to find out no-one home and me being locked outside in the fucking heat for a hour and a half....

Today I wasn't even ment to go anywhere. All this shit happened because I promise her I would try my hardest to come to her party. Normally today I have cricket but because I've busted my finger I couldn't play. So I decided to go to her party... and she does this to me... Her friends telling me to call her later and apologize.... Not like she will pick up.... And if I message her... Not like she'll believe it anyway... So here I am fucking depressed about a good friend..... All I wanted to do was have a great time and celebrate her 16th....

Im more awesome she said!

Cindy Tan said I'm more awesome than her :)

Now the latest...

Well got my suit the other day looking quite smick in it as well. Didn't think I pull it off but I did in the end. Modern Warfare 2 came out as well and I have to say its so fucking bloody awesome. Too bad the single player story line missions were short and with a weird ending. Must me a Modern Warfare 3 coming out then . OMG can't wait for that to come out then.

Today we had referee's presentation night/AGM and man it was boring as hell. Me, Haz, Nik and soem other mates decided to have fun with all the cups that were given to us to drink from but we didn't need. We came up with some stupid things such as face masks and Playstation controllers to towers. We also became evil doctors and swap the heads of two jelly babies. We were acting the goat for at least the whole 4 hours. Greatest laugh and joke I've had in ages with anyone.

Coming up I've got Formal, camp and interviews at Manly which will be a pain in the arse to get to. I'm not quite organised for formal. Completely disorganized for camp and interviews are soon and I haven't even booked yet. Oh well, Looks like I'm gonna be busy these next couple of days.

My pinky finger is still in the shape of an L. Which means Its been like this for just over a week now. Looks like I'm gonna have to see a doctor about it. The amazing thing about it is I seriously can't feel anything in it. I know its not broken.  The only thing I can think of why it's like this is because I've busted a nerve in it. Awesome much?

Signing out of school life forever on Thursday which will be interesting as I don't know what I'm going to do if I bump into to certain people .... I reckon I should just run with the flow. See what happens and make quick decisions when the time is right.

The only reason our world revolves is because humans must hate. Why? Seriously everywhere you go you hear of hate in some manner. It's stupid. I know I'm one of those hater type people but I hate the right things, such as young kids acting as if they are twice their age and as if they were king shit and the world revolves around them. Seriously sometimes I think the world needs a big smack in the face to realise how stupid we have all become. Why am I ranting on about absolute shit I have no idea...

Chow!

Stepping stones.

Well, I've given my head a week's worth of time to think things over. I've work out that if things need to get better I need to talk to someone in particular. Hopefully this will heal some wounds and re-establish connections between old friends. Then in which I'm hoping will rise into bigger and better things. If this doesn't work out I don't know what will and I'll know one thing for sure I've probably thrown away the bestest friend I could of asked for. So basically I should start sorting this horrible mess up by the end of the week.

Heading off to city in the morning to pick up the suit! Woot!

Anyway gonna go hit the sack! David said hello as well ! :)

Suit Up

Well Friday I hit the town for a suit. Ended up finding a SABA suit worth $500. That was just jacket and pants.

Total:
Jacket $360
Pants $140
Shirt $90
Tie $60
Belt $50
Shoes $150

All up : $850

Here's a Picture of the suit!

Lets us know what you think :)

Unanswerable Questions......

Just over three months ago I decided to stab myself so deep the pain would hurt me for a long period of time. I tried various methods to overcome this pain with none of them being successful as I still feel the pain stronger than ever after today. I don't know why I stab myself in the first place. Why did I chose this path? Why did I do what I done? Was it because I was feeling anger to myself? 

Sometimes I wish I could travel time and make things right again but that wish would be impossible. All I can do is to help build my future but every time I try, I fail because of this burden I placed on myself. Why do I feel so much pain? Why haven't I felt like this before? All these questions place in my confused and unsettled mind get thrown aside into the unanswerable pile. 

The question that sits on the top of that pile is: What are my feelings?.....

Noobs...

Well I haven't blogged in a while because of various reasons such as HSC. So far so good I've done 5/6 exams. Only got PDHPE on Friday then I'm done. Man, 6 months ago everyone was full stressing out about the HSC because it was gonna kill us all and all sorts BUT we are prevailing and all the hype about it is bullshit. The best regime for the HSC I reckon is my method. Sleep at about 4 in the afternoon the get up about 12 - 1 at night. Study all night then head off to exam. Before exam just relax leave your notes and just listen to music or socialise. BTW the HSC supervisors are super friendly and very layed back they aren't as strict as think they might be. Like they let us bring in wrapper food. I had STARBURST!!!!! XD. Like as soon as we finish we start talking they don't mind. The rules about No movement in the last 15 minutes is nothing to them so you can still go toilet and leave if you want. I have to admit they are pretty good compared to others I've heard about at other schools.

This time of the year I'm normally through the week playing summer soccer at Camden or around Campbelltown but this year I'm not. Instead I'm playing cricket on weekends and I'm a spare player for summer soccer. My normal team decided not to play me as I might cause problems this year as I play a little rough. I can see where they are coming from as I've broken two goal keepers noses this year in winter competition from belting a ball. Anyway crickets going good so far. I've played two games and already have quite a very good average with the bat, I've got some wicked catches like those solo moment things on TV except better. Bowling has been the bad part about my game. In training sessions I'm ripping apart my team but for some reason in games I bowl heaps crap. Oh well.

The worse thing about leaving school is departing the daily regime of seeing your best mates from 6 years of being dickheads or just plain having a great time with each other ;). Like for other people it might be easier as they sort of live a lot closer to each other then me. I live half a world away. :( That's why I decided along with some convincing from mates to go to my Yr12 formal. Although it will make me broke even more it will be worth it.

These last couple of days has been really funny with our school doing Duke of Ed hike and they got washed out hahahahahhahahahaha. I seriously think I should go on one of these hikes and show them how to do it. LOL. All I can say is noobs. =D They have to go and do a competition hike called Dragon Skin. I've been to 2 going on to my 3rd and in these hikes it always rains. We have to walk around in rain all day, then set up our tents in the rain then we have to cook in the rain. Seriously by this time everything is wet like there is nothing dry. If you were dry you were cheating. :)

N.E.R.D.

HSC starts in a few days gotta continue studying... WTF am I blogging for???

Graduation

HOLY FUCKING SHIT!! After 14 Years of education its finally come to the end. WOOP WOOP. I can't believe I'm graduating in like fucking two days. I'm seriously gonna miss school. I know I hate school but theres gonna be some things I'm gonna miss about it. Too all my friends I've made over the years at Sefton I'm gonna miss ya all. Anyway we got our Year 12 concert and muck up day tomorrow. Holy fucking hell its gonna be awesome.

Time flys when your having fun!

Have you ever had something and just threw it away. Well thats all I seem to do with my life. Just throw everything and anything away. Been thinking lately about everything and yes I mean everything even global warming... I don't know what it means but everything I want right now I've already thrown away and I know I can't get it back unless by some miracle. Theres some things I can try and Re-establish where I left off but it will be hard and time consuming. I'm finishing school soon and I've got some really big decisions to make about my life. Where do I want to be? What do I want to do? Who do I want to be with? Meh so many questions with no answers at all or some with answers which are virtually impossible. I NEED A FUCKING TIME MACHINE. I think back to something I said to someone which killed my relationship with her. I realized that what I said will actually happen to everyone else when I leave school. I know this will happen because I'm getting busier by the day. I don't get time to talk to much people. I barely go online nowadays (I haven't blogged in about a week and a half). Theres only a few people I'd love to stay in contact with but I knows theres one thats impossible. Gosh I hate myself because of all this shit. Why do I do this to myself? I have to be the biggest dickhead out. Some of my mates tell me that I should go talk to them but whats the point. Anyway the last week and a bit been running around organizing stuff for this weekend Children's Festival in Bankstown. Watched District 9 with Tim and Julie this week and it was friggen awesome. Words can't describe how good it was. At the moment I'm in Cabra-Vale park blogging away while watching Primary kids and some hot arse teachers play sports. Never been more peaceful or relaxed. I'm supposed to be at the scout hall working last minute things but I forgot the keys so I'm sticking around till about 3 which sucks because its still two whole fucking hours away...

The more the merrier as they so say...

Have you ever had too much of something whether it be toys or clothes or something like that. Well they say the more you have the more happier you will be. In my case I hate having too much of anything. For me its money and attention from people... Kinda sucks. I know most guys would kill for the attention that I get but honestly I tell them don't get your hopes up because it sucks. I've tried various methods to lower this but I can'r e.g. dying my hair something stupid but it didn't work. Money is the other thing I have too much of. I have enough money at the moment for me to pay rent and a mortgage on a house and still survive on about 20 bucks a week. Before I purchased the house I seriously was throwing my money away. I hate it. Your probably thinking why don't you give it to me then. Well, I decided its my money and I'll spend it getting something nice for you or doing something useful with it. If not that then I'm impulse buying crap I don't even need E.g. $250 Raybens. The saying might go The more the merrier but for me its not the case....

The red pill or the blue pill?

Haven't blogged in a couple of days. :)

Saturday I had my first primary school (Canley Vale Public School) reunion/open day thing. Met up with some old mates and caught up with old teachers and along with mates went around trying to pick up some of the new student teachers. They had on display school photos right from the year the school first opened and I decided I would try and find a picture of my dad. Turned out I unsuccessful. :( Sunday was a long hot day refereeing Premier League Girls Semi Finals. The whole day I was pretty much in the sun baking in the centre of field chasing around after 22 very fit and attractive female players. End of the day I was suffering from Dehydration and sunstroke. I'm still feeling the affects of it 2 whole days later. The game I reffed in the centre, the team that lost weren't happy with my decisions in the game (obviously) and decided to report me to Football NSW. I told them to go for it seeing as Football NSW were already there and were happy with the way I referee the game. The manager kept going at me after the game but I kept ignoring her. I was going to file a report against her but no point because Football NSW were there and are witnessing everything. Some people are so stupid. This manager told me by the end of her report I'd be fucked over. I told her by the end of mine you won't be near a soccer field ever again and smiled. Gotta love being a smart arse. The whole weekend been thinking about a few issues that concern me and its left me kinda confused and unknowing of the choice I have to make. All I know is the choice I make will eventually hurt someone like every other fucked up decision I have to make. Kinda sucks making decisions that mean the world to people....

Monday we got our Yr 12 jerseys, well jackets, and they look pretty flash and a few people had a few flaws in theirs but mine was fine. Few people were saying it would of been better if we could of put anything we wanted on the back of our jackets because our names look gay compared to the other schools. I agree but my last name looks pretty good on the back. I don't know but it looks in place their compared to other people last names such as NGUYEN and LY. Only problem with the jackets is we got them too late like its summer now and we getting our jackets, how convenient.... would of been better if we received them earlier in the year possibly before winter then the jackets actually be useful. Today I went to  Eden's place after school and messed around their for a while. Then headed for cricket training. Didn't stay long at training. I wasn't in the best shape so I had a solid 30 minute session in the nets and went home. Friday is the teacher Versus Student Euro match and the score is 3-0 to the teachers, so this game is pretty much do or die for the Students. Gosh I need to hit the pools soon....

Pure Awesomeness

At Eden's place being totally awesome!!!!

Healthy Habits!

Red Bull, Chips, Confectioneries, Lack of sleep, Instant food, No exercise, Booze, Soft Drinks, Coffee, Ice Cream and Chocolate isn't really the best way to live and eat your life. Right there I have just describe my habits for the last two weeks and I wonder why I feel so shit lately. Well I hadn't been to school in like a week and I finally came to school yesterday and I honestly don't know why but I felt as if I was the new kid around. Yr 12 concert is soon and been talking to a few mates and we might get an act going but so far we might not be. I won't say what kind of act we might do but I'm positive the children and teachers of Sefton High will love it. Well today started alright then it degraded to shit and then it degraded further into diarrhea..... Kinda depressing actually. I don't know why people try to avoid the truth, seriously whats done is done. You can't change whats happened the only thing you can do is move on and except whats happened and suffer the consequences. Anyway, Got nominated for state titles again but this time down on the south coast. Got to go some meeting on Sunday night to find out the details and whether I am going or if I can go seeing as I have HSC coming up soon and a lot of organizing for the scouts coming up. The other day I saw a statement by someone which actually got a chain of thought happening about an incident a while ago but thats another thing I'll keep to myself. Been thinking lately that I need a new hobby away from RC's (remote control race cars), I thought maybe I should get back into to DJing seeing as I loved doing before and I didn't know why I stopped but oh well. Only thing I need to do now is update the music list. Currently scabbing music off everyone and downloading heaps. hehe. At the moment I estimate my UAI maybe around the 50-60 which for me I quite happy with seeing as I would be the first in the family to ever get a HSC. My dad always wanted his HSC but couldn't because back in the day he had to drop school so he could work to support the family. Kind of sucked actually but the stories he use to tell me sounded like he was having fun everyday of the bloody week even at work but work then and work now is completely different. Not long now till my life is pretty much sorted out because right now it's a bloody mess....

Short but sweet

I'm really really sleepy and tired! Long day, very thoughtful and decisional. Right now I wish I could leave everything behind me and start fresh...

My awesome superpower! Laziness!

BBBLLLUUUURRRRGGGHHH!!!

:( Been sick these last couple of days. So I can't be bother blogging so bye mofo's!

Just some random jokes! :P

A market researcher called at a house and his knock was answered by a young woman with three small children running around her. He asked her if she minded replying to his questions and she agreed. He asked her if she knew his company,Cheeseborough-Ponds. When she said no, he mentioned that among their many products was Vaseline and she certainly knew of that product. When asked if she used it, the answer was "Yes." Asked how she used it, she said, "To assist sexual intercourse." The interviewer was amazed. He said, "I always ask that question because everyone uses our product and they always say they use it for the child's bicycle chain, or the gate hinge; but I know that most use it for sexual intercourse. Since you've been so frank, could you tell me exactly how you use it?" "Yes, we put it on the doorknob to keep the kids out."


A man meets a gorgeous woman in a bar. They talk, they connect, they end up leaving together. They get back to her place, and as she shows him around her apartment, he notices that her bedroom is completely packed with teddy bears. Hundreds of small bears on a shelf all the way along the floor, medium sized ones on a shelf a little higher, and huge bears on the top shelf along the wall. The man is kind of surprised that this woman would have a collection of teddy bears, especially one that's so extensive, but he decides not to mention this to her. He turns to her... they kiss... and then they rip each others clothes off and make love. After an intense night of passion, as they are lying there together in the afterglow, the man rolls over and asks, smiling, "Well, how was it?" The woman says, "You can have any prize on the bottom shelf"


A man goes to the doctor and says, "Doc, you have to help me!" The doctor asks, "What's your problem?" The guy says, "Every morning I wake up with my 'morning flagpole'...give the wife a quick one, and then go to work. On the way to work, I carpool with the next door neighbor's wife who gives me a blow job during the ride to work. Once I get there, I do some work and then at morning tea time, I go into the photocopy room and crank one out with one of the young office girls. At lunch, I take my secretary out to a hotel and give her a good boning. For afternoon tea, I give the boss's wife a good servicing. Then, I go home and slip the maid a few inches. Then at night, I give the wife another screw......." "So...????" asked the doctor. "What's your problem???" The guy says, "Well, it hurts when I masturbate!"


Two teenagers wander off to the bushes during a softball game on the outskirts of town and start necking. After a while the boy stops. "You know we've been doing this for a few weeks now and I think it's time we went all the way," he pleads. "Well, maybe," she says, "But I'm a virgin and I heard it hurts. Besides all those people at the field may hear us." The boy stops and says, "Hmmm, well then if it hurts, start making cow sounds, and I'll stop. But if it feels good start singing. That way no one will ever guess what we're really doing." The girl agrees so they quickly take off their clothes and get down to business. Ten minutes later people watching the game hear sounds echoing through the quiet countryside so loudly that the teams stop playing. "Moooo ..... Moooooo ...... Moooooooon River .......!"


Retired gentlemen went to apply for social security. After waiting in line for quite a long time, he arrives at the counter. The woman behind the counter asked him for his identification to verify his age. He looked in his pockets and realized he has left his wallet at home. He told the woman that he seemed to have left his wallet at home, "will I have to go home and come back now?" he ask. The woman says, "unbutton your shirt." he opens his shirt revealing lots of curly silver hair. She says, "that silver hair on your chest is proof enough for me" as she processes his social security application. When he gets home, the man excitedly tells his wife about this experience at social security office. She says, "you should have dropped your pants, you might have qualified for disability, too."


A man goes skydiving for the first time. After listening to the instructor for what seems like days, he is ready to go. Excited, he jumps out of the airplane. About five seconds later, he pulls the ripcord. Nothing happens. He tries again. Still nothing. He starts to panic, but remembers his back-up chute. He pulls that cord. Nothing happens. He frantically begins pulling both cords, but to no avail. Suddenly, he looks down and he can't believe his eyes. Another man is in the air with him, but this guy is going *up*! Just as the other guy passes by, the skydiver - by this time scared out of his wits - yells, "Hey, do you know anything about skydiving?" The other guy yells back, "Fuck no! Do you know anything about lighting gas stoves?"


One day a man was sleeping and the neighbor,a beautiful blond girl, entered his house, woke him up and said, "What is that between your legs?" He replied that is "my bird." He went back to sleep. She came back later and said, "What's that furry stuff around your bird?" He replied that's "my nest." So he went back to sleep. She came back later. "What's those two things under it?" He said those are "the eggs." She said, "Okay, can I play with your bird,and he said "ok." When he woke up later, he noticed that he was in the hospital. He saw the little girl and asked, "what happened?" She said, "When I was playing with your bird he spit in my eye so I chopped off his head, burnt down his nest and busted his eggs!"


A man walked into an appliance store and asked the price of a 25" remote controlled color television set. "One dollar," the clerk replied. "You've got to be kidding." "Look, Mac," the clerk said, "do you want it or not?" Of course, the customer gave him a dollar. On the way out with his incredible bargain, the suctomer saw a big frost-free refrigerator with automatic ice maker. "How much for that?" he asked the clerk. "Fifty cents," came the reply. The customer forked over the half dollar, saying, "What the heck is going on here?" "Nothing is goining on here," the clerk snapped. "But my boss is at my house with my wife. And what he's doing to her, I'm doing to his business."


While away at a convention, an executive happened to meet a young woman who was pretty and intelligent. When he persuaded her to disrobe in his hotel room, he found out she had a superb body as well. Unfortunately, the executive found himself unable to perform. On his first night home, the executive walked from the shower into the bedroom to find his wife covered in a rumpled bathrobe, her hair curled, her face creamed, munching candy loudly while she pored through a movie magazine. Then, without warning, he felt the onset of a magnificent erection. Looking down at this, he snarled, "Why you ungrateful, mixed-up son of a bitch. Now I know why they call you a prick!"

Heartbreak!

Well, last couple of days been really interesting with local soccer finals being held. I had to go watch Jess play in the U14 girls final. Funny thing they lost, her team had dominated their comp and won every game all year and then they lose in the grand finals 2-1. Depressing I should say. Make things more Interesting the next day I was up early down at the fields ready to referee some games. I ended up doing the 13's final. Interesting game I have to say. I had to say there were some things in the game I could of done better but I didn't but I guess thats the difference from Super Youth league/Youth league  and local competition games. The standard is majorly different. Jess's brother, Daniel, was playing in the local premier league final and they also lost in penalty shoot outs. Jess's Mum, Claire, decided to make it a trio and she lost in the Ladies Premier League 2-1. Saturday night was very very very fun. My teams end of year celebration was a sex toy party where they were displaying, showing and DEMONSTRATING all the sex toys and stuff. I'll leave the details out about the night but it was heaps friggen fun with all the boys and their girlfriends. ;) Right now trying to help someone get through a tough time in her life. It's hard moving on in life. It usually takes time for some people it takes a day, others weeks, others years but when theirs the end, its the end. I'm probably not making any sense right now lol. Sometimes I think about the life I've had so far and all the choices I've made. Some of them I wish I could change but whats done is done. Last couple of weeks I've been watching heaps of Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 trailers and teasers and fucking hell I just watched the latest one and can't fucking wait for it to be available to purchase! 10/11/09 !!!!! Been an interesting week in footy as well with the doggies getting flogged by the tigers and the dragons beating the eels after a 3 game losing streak. Hrmm right now I want my whip but my scout leader has it so I don't do anything stupid with it. Knowing me its probably the wises thing to do. I'm still trying to master two whips at once and the accuracy. I seriously can't wait for the day I whip something out of someone's mouth but thats gonna be a long time. Dam its 2am I haven't had any dinner and I've got school tomorrow. Grr school sucks balls!

DEAR JADE!

This blog is dedicated to jade because if I don't put one here for her she'll bash me....


BTW I learnt today that yesterday she stacked it really bad in euro and now she looks like phantom of the opera! JKS JKS haha. but she has like a graze on her face! :( 

Bull-Fucking-Shit!

Well today was Yr12 versus teachers in soccer and we had our asses served to us on a silver plater twice. I honestly blame 1 the people who pulled out on us and 2 the prefects. Last week they told everyone on our team that we were allowed to play with soccer boots. Today right on kickoff we get told we can play with studs... Eventually we played with our studs because we had nothing else to wear and we had some new rules we couldn't go hard and no slide tackles... THEN WTF IS THE POINT IN PLAYING! My attitude to the teachers was grow some balls and man up. So here we are playing a pansy game of soccer and next thing you know they start playing rough as anything and we couldn't fight back because we had studs... I can see where they are coming from like if we did play normally and we broke a teachers leg our asses would no longer exist in our galaxy. Anyway I wasn't particularly happy with my performance, Heaps of stupid mistakes and I kept getting the ball when I shouldn't off and when I should of been getting the ball I wasn't. There was one run i had where me and eden did a quick one two to get around the defense. I was one on one with the keeper and  just happen to lose me fucking footing. We ended up having 1 shot all game and it was Eden's but he placed it wide, Hit it well but placed it wide. Meh, We still have plenty of sports to get back at the teachers but seriously people need to work things out. Didn't see much of Vertigo today and we only spoke a few words. I got back my Last exam and I got 32/100 but it looks like I can scab enough marks to make 60/100. After school walking out saw someone I used to talk to but she turned bitchy on me so we split. I don't know the story behind it but I've never seen her bawl her eyes out like I did today. On the way home on the train met up with one of Hazza's mates and we had a yarn until his stop. Recently I've been watching How I Met Your Mother again I didn't realized how much I missed it. So I've started watching all 4 seasons again and can't bloody wait for season 5 *drools*. Anyway I think I need to go pump the stereo for the neighbourhood.

Broke!

It's Midday on a Tuesday, I should be at school but I accidently slept in and because its a Tuesday we finish school at 1230. So I worked out by the time I get ready and make my way to school there will only be an hour of school for me. Anyway good thing I did stay home because the police came over today like not long ago asking me about my living arrangements and few other things. I found out something off them which frankly scares me but thats another thing. Student Versus Teachers tomorrow in soccer and I'm pumped. One of the teachers complained that it was next Friday and he wasn't going to be there so it got changed to tomorrow. The last week or so I've been getting back my exams slowly and so far I've failed 3/4 :( when it should of been 1/4 I've failed. Just waiting on IPT now. I don't think I did the best job in the world on it but hopefully I passed. Yeah not to long ago me and my uncle had to redo our mortgage and budget ourselves again and this time it isn't pretty. I'm left with about 30 cents a week now. :( So now All the things I need or want to do are gone. No formals, I need a new wardrobe, new sunnies, new shoes, new referee gear, scouts camps, parties, outings, Yr 12 jersey, and to make it all worse I need a new suit and school shoes (which broke Yesterday... Friggen hell being broke sucks. Money isn't important in my life tho its the friends I make and keep for life. Like I know a group at school hate my guts but I still would do anything for them. Actually I'd do anything for anyone or in my best mates eyes everyones bitch.... thanks stooge. I've got cricket training this afternoon and I can't be bothered going but I need the training to get back into cricket because right now I'm crap since I haven't played in ages. Oh well looks like I'm going to training because practice makes perfect! =]

The First Entry!

Well, Today after a long boring morning reffing old people play soccer... *yawn* Came home to help little bro (Hazza) pack his bags for a snow camp in which he is leaving like soon. *parties* So yeah, Here I am sitting on my bed bored out of my stupid useless mind decided to make a blog because I just decided it would give us something to do. So here I am blogging away on my first ever one. How does feel? Strange and I have to admit it is very conforming because I'm guessing like every second teen has a bloody blog. Well not long ago I went and dropped Hazza off at school so he could head off to his camp and what do you know two girls that had met me the day before at the country fair were there at the door waiting for no-one else but me. I better say how this all came about. Well, Saturday I had nothing on all day I had planned on meeting up with a lady friend, I'll name her Vertigo, to do a little study and take a few pictures of trees for her art project I think but I had no cash to meet up with her. I asked if she could come over to Ingleburn and study here at the Library. Her dad didn't let her which was upsetting. So I decided to go with Hazza to this country fair thing at his school. So yeah we walked around for a while met up with some of  Hazza mates, and also some girls in his year. Wasn't long before we were all chatting away in a circle. Not long after that one of them blabs out that I'm a hotter older version of Hazza. We all obviously died of laughter. The girl who blab was named Jess. She is a friggen giant, she is like a mile high. Her friends call her a behemoth in which I totally agree. Anyway back to our circle. It wasn't long before the domino affect started and the laughter died down to just Hazza laughing at me. Only he knew I hate attention. So I told them I hated the attention and of course I got the WTF? look. Like honestly I should love the attention but I hate it. I guess I'm different. Well, Let me put it this way. All these people think your hot and all this crap. They say they like you but you don't like them. Obviously you say no and rip their heart out but when you have to keep doing it just gets annoying because then you start to feel bloody slack. Like I honestly don't see anything in myself. They must be blind. I haven't told Jess that I'm not interested but I can't show it anymore with my body actions. That night I get home and hop on Facebook and what do you know they have added me. Shoot me Please! *sighs*. So basically thats the reason why they had nothing else better to do than just wait around for a guy they wont ever have. Now your probably thinking I'm bloody slack..... Anyway I drop Hazza off and Jess and her friend come and have a chat with us while my uncle talked to the teacher about Hazza being a pain in the rear end. I was begging my uncle to finish up and takes us home but no we had to stick around for about 30 minutes. So here I am stuck in My brothers school hall with two people I really don't wanna be with. Now I'm sitting at home watching the Formula 1 cars and blogging away while being a bloody Facebook addict. Anyway I should hit the sack got bloody school tomorrow.