Melbourne!!!

Well I sorta just got back from a four day holiday to Melbourne and I have to say I had an awesome time. The only problems I can think off are we needed more people and more money. I haven't really blogged in a while so I should at least write a fair amount tonight. Well recently at college I've starting liking some girl who absolutely has an amazing body which I know is weird but seriously its really hot. She doesn't believe me that I think this but she can think what she likes all I know is that I like it ;) hahaha. Well anyway its been a while since I first starting having my eyes glued on her and basically things have moved lets just quicker than I expected and I guess in Melbourne we almost went too far too soon. Luckily we didn't get to that step which deep inside I'm sorta thankful for. Like I'll admit she does get the blood running downstairs and maybe a little too often at times. I dunno really as a guy I shouldn't be thinking like this but this is what I want and something I must keep in order to fulfill a promise I made to someone I loved dearly. I want this relationship to last with her. She cool. Shes got a license, drives me insane, lets me look at other girls and voice opinion (strange I reckon as I haven't met anyone like this but the upside she's also different), Different, can hold her drink, loves her shopping, and gosh does she love to  torment me and best of all a personality I could seriously die for. Those three little words that I wish I had the guts to say to her would be weird because I guess as soon as I say it I'm gonna start using it loosely. I really should be sleeping as I'm meeting up with her at 7am tomorrow. Meh, I;m actually starting to enjoy blogging away here. I haven't really told a lot of people about my current relationship status because I have certain people in my life that will fuck it up for me so basically the less people know about it the better it is for them and for me. I guess I learnt the first time after some girl I used to like decided ...actually she didn't decide shit and let her friends do all the work for her basically she could never make her mind up about the relationship and I did because of the fucking fake messages her slutty friends were giving me. So basically things didn't end nicely. I got hurt hard and I still cop the blame. Anyway back to the happy side of life. Few nights ago in Melbourne I had a D&M with her and and this wasn't a normal D&M. This one is the kinda one you keep to yourself and that one person and came straight from deep deep down. I mean I finished in tears from it. Seriously I haven't been like this since my dad passed 2 years ago and you know. I actually feel more closer and more open to her. I'm still at that stage of I dunno or should I?. I wanna build it up to the stage where you know you can do anything (well not anything) and be sure they (partner) are not gonna get upset or chuck a monkey poo over it. I wish I had lucky charms then I would get one and give it to her LOL. Too bad the only one I've got is a number....No. 12. Today on the plane she passed me a parcel (M&M's) haha. I thought about doing the freight train but I don't think any of us are talented enough, and M&M's aren't the best for this. Skittles are so much better they got more slide to them. FUCK ME DEAD her bestie thinks I'm a sweet talker...FML...wtf is a sweet talker. Honestly I'll admit I like to flirt because it's fun and I've grown up being like this, but sweet talker? thats just fucked ROFLMAO. Oh well not much I can do. Like I rather Sweet talk as it is so called then just be normal all the time. Like yeah normal is fine but its boring and C'mon flirting brings out laughter and I love to make people laugh and smile. I absolutely hate it when people have the shits or are upset especially when its over me. Anyway I'm off to bed. I shall blog soon hopefully. chow

kate :)

Well, Im in Ingleburn library right now and bugging of kate. :) such good fun. People should come and join me. Dont worry it costs nothing to bug her off.

If you really liked a girl and she was taken would you tell her? ever been in a situation like this before?

Well so far in my short life.... I've only really liked 2 girls and they both weren't taken. If they were taken then yes I would tell them, but in saying this I wouldn't tell them either, really it would depend on our past and present relationship with each other. I have had those little crushed for girls who have been taken before but other then that I don't think I have ever been in this situation.

Great...

Well today was a alright day I guess. I got up early messed around with Harison for a while then ended up going out to see Steph...it eventually turned into being Steph and Alvin. It turned out Alvin lost his wallet on the train...so instead of thinking me and Steph have some alone time to catch up we travel to all corners of the city rail network to find his wallet. We eventually found it at Campbelltown station.. I guess the  reason my day was bad was because I saw Steph and Alvin together and from the stories I've heard about Alvin it ain't good for Steph. but I don't know if these stories are true or not seeing as I barely know the guy. The thing is I can't see him not doing these things. Well I think my judgement on all this might be clouded by the fact I might have feelings for Steph which have been blooming and dying out since the end of high school. We went out a couple of times and we got really close and then I don't know what happened... I thought we were moving to fast and I wasn't to sure with my mind. I still had other issues in my life at the time. I didn't make it any better a couple months ago when I drunk as and I went on MSN and started chatting to her. I screwed everything up between me and her. We didn't speak up until 2 weeks ago when I turned 18. It's all to confusing for me. Ever since my dad passed away all I wanted to do was to find someone and settle it....but in nows day and age it seems to be impossible with all the shit that goes on in the fucked up world... I might just go sleep on it..

Why did I pick that for...

 You know those decisions you make and then so time later in the near future you go why did i do  that or choose that for? Well its taken me about a month to think it through and yes I'm making one of those decisions which I may or may not agree with later on. As you may or may not know I really liked this girl I use to go school with and lets say it got messy both ways with both sides of the party fucking up but me fucking up harder... kinda sucked. Which is another one of decisions I made and went why the hell did I do that for... I guess I can't just keep hanging on to her when things/feelings will never go back to  the way they were before the crap. Anyway yeah its for the best I hope.

On the other hand, I start University on Monday at The International College Of Management Sydney based at Manly. Hopefully I'm not stuck in class with idiots and fags roflmao. So yeah next week gotta be at the Uni by 8 everyday for the week, Which is gonna suck....

Aussie Day was on Tuesday, Headed of to Cronulla with Taylor (Best mate from cricket) and met up some chicks. Whole day I pretty much got hammered for looking like one of the girls friends apparently we could be twins rofl. Anyway that day was good came back and had a few drinks to finish the day and watch the fireworks on my roof.

Well wuick update on the goods and the bads... I could be playing as high as AA2 Adults comp for soccer and the bad is I'm currently talking to like 10 girls.... What The Hell ==" The one I want to talk to takes forever to reply and it just gets annoying so I'm not bothering to say hello anymore... I don't know what the problem is because we used to talk like everyday for hours on end and all sorts. Now its just .... dead.. meh...

Had a massive fight on the phone with mum today... It was all over my Dads will.. and seriously it got nasty because mum went back to her stupid attitude that I'm mentally retarded and don't know fuck all just like my dad. As soon as she said that I was gonna kill her if she was in front of me. Seriously how much lower does she want to go with this, For Gods sake Dads dead and Your still giving me and him a hard time about him being a dumbfuck... and having some mental disease in which doctors have already proven fucking that he doesn't have it. On countless occasions as well. Only problems with the bastard was he had a slight hearing problem (like 15% deaf) and he had melanoma's.